Nice morning

 Yesterday we had a peaceful, relaxed and relatively drama-free morning, it was lovely - with all the windows open we could hear the church bells ringing, which I love but husband doesn't, he was sitting in the garden and I could hear him grumbling about it.  Each to their own!  And then it went downhill in the afternoon.  Enough said.  I think he's given up the idea of a greenhouse though, so there's that - no doubt he'll move onto another obsession soon, he usually does.

We've got something on every day this week.  Today we're having our 2nd Ocado delivery, it's been 4 weeks since the first one.  They're still giving me money off and free delivery for the first 3 months, as an introductory offer, so might as well take advantage.  Tomorrow an engineer is coming to service the heating.....will have to keep Betty in the garden, she loves workmen and will be following him around sniffing his legs and sticking her nose in his toolbag if we let her.  Wednesday we'll go and do the monthly Aldi stock up shop, I'll get a few more shelf stable things to go in the box under my bed.  Thursday I'm going on the free shoppers bus to Bridgwater retail park....on my own....and Friday we're going out for lunch.

Husband went on the shoppers bus last week by himself - I was a bit dubious about letting him go on his own, but made sure he had his angina spray, phone, bottle of water (and wallet).  At least he wasn't driving himself, he was on a bus with plenty of people, and in the retail park with loads of people around should anything happen.  It was fine, nothing happened!  We've mutually decided that we will take it in turns to go by ourselves, him one week, me the next.  It gives us both a break of just over 4 hours from each other - it'll be bliss for me and I'm sure he feels the same!  When he goes next week, he's arranged to meet up with his mate, a neighbour from our previous house, they'll go for a coffee and burger I expect, that'll be nice for him.

June, I had to smile at the idea of you taking all night to write up your list of frustrations 😂.  You said I'm brave for writing about all these things....I just don't want people to run away with the idea that life is peachy for us or that it's not as bad as I say.  When we're in the company of others, be it family, friends, neighbours or people we've just met and passed the time of day with, they all (and yes family and friends included) think husband is fine.  He's not.  They only see him for a short period of time and he's on his best behaviour - he doesn't want people to think there's something wrong with him!  So he makes a big effort to be chatty (extremely chatty), friendly, happy and engaging....which is very different to the way he is when we're home alone (apart from the chatty bit, he's ALWAYS talking.  Well, except when he's asleep).  I've actually had, on several occasions, both friends and family say to me after they've spent a bit of time with us that husband seems fine, they couldn't see anything wrong.  Well, that's just a small snapshot in time, it in no way represents the true nature of things on a daily basis.

Yesterday, he offered to cook his own dinner....he was having (at my suggestion) cooked turkey slices reheated in gravy, potatoes and green veg, I had a spinach & ricotta cannelloni ready meal with veg.  As he was cooking his, he kept coming in (I was in the bedroom reading) every couple of minutes to give me a running commentary on each step.  And he seemed to have used every pan and utensil he could find, and left them covering all the kitchen surfaces, along with splashes of gravy and the odd escaped pea and bit of broccoli.  😒😒  One for the frustrations list!