A stranger

 I know husband didn't choose this.  Nor did I, come to that.  Our marriage vows were for better, for worse, richer or poorer, in sickness and in health - and of course I will honour that.  But I'm living with someone else now, someone who is often a stranger to me - the man I married 41 years ago, who made me laugh all the time, who was kindness itself and so helpful, not just to me but to everyone, who was so laid back nothing fazed him, who almost never got angry about anything, who was very affectionate and frequently bought me flowers, is long gone.  And that's hard, and upsetting.

I'm sure he does get frustrated and angry with himself, in fact I know he does.  But I get the brunt of that, he doesn't take his frustrations out on anyone else, albeit being a bit abrupt with people sometimes. 

Thank you for all the comments, I appreciate them a lot.

It was very hot yesterday, outside anyway.  I was pleased to find that it was quite a bit cooler inside the bungalow, very pleasant actually.  Our last house used to get stiflingly hot, especially at the front of the house, which was south facing.  All the veg plants are putting a spurt on now, they were all very slow to start, we've had several green courgettes and the yellow ones are almost ready.  Lots of mini cucumbers, tomato plants loaded with flowers.  I'll pull some carrots today, I'm pretty sure they must be ready.  It's so nice to have our own home grown produce.