Thank you all so much for all the lovely supportive comments and emails. I went home for a couple of days, basically holed up and put myself back together again....as far as I am able to right now. Then went back to the van, had a nice peaceful time with our lovely friends there, and arrived back home this evening. Husband has a hospital appointment tomorrow morning and another appointment on Monday, I have a diabetic eye screening appointment next week and Betty has her grooming appointment. Speaking of which, I also need my hair cut, must remember to book up tomorrow. We've arranged to go back to the van in a fortnight or so, our lovely van neighbours will also come back the same time. It's quite scary to think that realistically we only have about another 6 or 7 weeks or so before the season finishes.....how much of that we can spend at the van remains to be seen, it's weather dependent mainly, but we found last year that several of the van owners don't bother coming in October, the days are short and the weather is much cooler - we did stay a few times last October and found it was quite chilly in the evenings, overnight and early mornings and there was hardly anybody else there - much to husband's disgust, he had nobody to talk to.
Things in my life aren't great at the moment, it's not something I'll be talking about on here though. I have to work it out for myself.
I'm having gut trouble, it's a result of the stress, so now I'm back home I need to go right back to basics with a healthy simple diet. Ironically, as soon as we got home we were given some homemade cake by a neighbour - which I shan't be eating!