Feelings

 We watched the cortege procession yesterday as the Queen's coffin on the gun carriage made its way from Buckingham Palace to Westminster Hall, followed by King Charles and the other senior members of the Royal Family.  I was in tears, my heart was bleeding for the Queen's children and grandchildren - no doubt they wanted to do the walk, but to have to do it in the full glare of the world must have been so, so difficult, especially for William and Harry, must have brought memories of doing the same for their mother flooding back.  What struck me was just how respectful, dignified, quiet and well-behaved the crowds were - rightly so, but so nice all the same.

When the procession reached Westminster Hall and the Queen's coffin was placed on the catafalque and the rest of the Royals lined up behind it, I noticed especially how solemn, composed and contemplative Sophie and Kate were.  Meghan, however, didn't seem to know how to arrange her face - or so I thought anyway.  It was as if she was very aware of the eyes of everyone and the cameras on her and wasn't sure whether she was supposed to look sad.  She failed, in any case.

I know members of the armed forces are used to standing on parade, but those ones who are standing on guard round the coffin for 6 hour shifts at a time have a job and a half.  Imagine having to stand still in one position for that length of time - I wonder whether they get comfort breaks or offered drinks.  I hope so, but should think not.

I didn't feel very well yesterday, more withdrawal symptoms I think - headachey and a bit nauseous, I also had the worst night's sleep in a long while so feel like death warmed up right now.  Going shopping this morning, to stock up on supplies for the caravan, I'm intending to continue with my vegetarian and healthy eating plan whilst there.  

Rambler, you said I must have strong willpower to continue with this restrictive diet.  The thing is, I felt so very unwell with the candida infection that I knew I HAVE to be strict about what I eat, until the yeast overgrowth is under control.  Having so many unpleasant symptoms all at once was just horrible, and I don't want that to happen again.