Hello all, thanks for the comments on my previous post. TA, Mum won't hear of her rugs being removed, she loves them. Having now fallen twice in the past week (once in her bedroom tripping over the edge of a rug, once in the kitchen simply by losing her balance), she does now realise she has to use a zimmer or one of her many sticks ALL the time. She's so stubborn, that's half the trouble (must be where sister and I get it from!). Mum's now had a CT scan and has to wait for an appointment to see the consultant to get the results.
Chris, I remember reading about your fracture and the numerous and ongoing problems you've had since, and I can empathise with your disappointment at friends not getting in touch. Goldensunflower, you're right, the friend I alluded to in my last post can't cope with my depression, they run a mile. Fair enough, not everyone can or knows how to cope with depression. Not that it's rocket science or involves anything complicated - a listening ear and a hug works wonders and is all I ever want.
But it's not just that. When I'm very depressed or stressed, I have a tendency (not a pleasant one) to lash out at people - verbally, not physically! - who have the misfortune to be close to me at the time. I do it to everyone, not just that particular friend (husband obviously gets the brunt of it, as he's usually closest. He's a treasure and I love him dearly). But the friend takes it personally and seems to think I single them out for it, which is simply not the case. Everyone else close to me is understanding and tolerant of my outbursts, but not that friend - they take umbrage and lash right back at me, which reduces me to tears every time. Well, they've taken themselves off now, indicating our friendship is over. Some friend. In some ways I don't blame them, but I sincerely hope I'd be a lot more tolerant, understanding and forgiving if they ever suffered from clinical depression. Which I sincerely hope they don't, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I guess what hurts the most is that i've known that friend for about 12 years and we were so close in the past.
Having had a break from blogging here, although posting regularly on my new food blog, I shall be writing the occasional post here. Thanks for bearing with me.