Clicking my fingers (I wish!). And the Coronation

 I was trying to explain to my husband the other day just why I'm so tired, stressed and irritable lately - I could see both by the expression on his face and a couple of things he said that he just doesn't 'get' it.  E.g. he said "But you go upstairs and read or do things on your laptop for a couple of hours, so you're getting plenty of rest!".  What he doesn't realise is that when I'm on my computer, I'm not just reading the paper or blogs or playing games - he bases it on what he does on his computer, which is play chess or watch silly video clips or look at umpteen cars on Autotrader or stuff on ebay.  I do all our banking on mine, enter appointments in our calendar (as well as the paper calendar we have on the wall), look up directions for the various medical appointments we (well, mostly he) have which aren't all in the hospital, some of them are in outreach clinics.  I do menu planning and look up recipes, google various bits of information we both need to know, and deal with and send emails.  So I'm not just resting when I'm sitting with my laptop upstairs, I'm busy working.  And when I do read up there, quite often I have to go back and re-read a page because my mind is always on the go, thinking about the next thing I've got to do, so I haven't taken in a word of what I've just read.

I know for a fact that husband doesn't think about everything that needs doing - I'm not suggesting he's got nothing at all on his mind, I know he's worried about his general health and the memory stuff and what it all might mean for the future, and he's definitely worried about possibly losing his driving licence.  But I think he's so used to me doing everything that he doesn't have any idea about HOW it all happens - I'm sure he thinks it all just happens as if by magic....if only all I had to do was click my fingers!

My mind is always on the go lately, it's so crammed with information and stuff that needs doing or planning, worries about husband and ill relative, questions to ask.  I sometimes feel like it's all spilling out as there's no room for it anymore - I keep forgetting things!  I don't think it's dementia or any medical problem, I'm pretty sure it's just that I've got so much on my mind at the moment.

Having done minimal but necessary stuff over the past few days, and made lots of lists, I am now feeling more organised and thus a bit less stressed.  I also slept reasonably well last night, which helps a lot.  Now that husband gets Attendance Allowance and I get Carers, I've been considering employing a cleaner, say once a fortnight - that'll take some of the pressure and work off me.

I'm having a batch cooking and baking day today, doing the last couple of meal/cakey things for when my sis and friend come, plus a few extras, all to freeze.  As it's the Coronation on Saturday, and I'm a staunch Royalist, I shall be watching it all on TV (ha, something I actually want to watch, for a change!).  So I want to make some food that will be easy to grab and eat in front of the TV - not the official Coronation Quiche though, spinach and broad beans!!  Yuck.  Maybe some sausage rolls, and I've got a pack of sourdough crumpets, I might add a sort of pizza topping to them.  We'll get some fresh salad on Friday on our way back from husband's scan, and a tub of clotted cream, as I'll probably make scones too - a good old British cream tea sounds the right sort of thing to have on this occasion, I've already got the jam.

I won't be swearing allegiance to the King though, I don't think that's necessary for us ordinary citizens.  I just hope there's no unexpected drama and it all goes well for the Royal Family, it'll be a stressful enough and long event for them as it is.  And I sincerely hope the media focuses solely on the Coronation and doesn't bring up Meghan - it's the King's day, not hers.  Will you be watching the Coronation?