Some good things

 Our little trip out yesterday certainly helped elevate husband's mood, and he even finished off cutting the back lawn when we got home.  Right now he's out cutting the front lawn, and we've changed the bed linen (a job which exhausts us both).  I've made a chicken meatloaf for tonight's dinner and there should be several portions to freeze as well.

Our much lower carb and healthier meals we've been having for the past week or 10 days have been paying off - I've lost 6lbs (mostly water at this stage I expect, but a loss is a loss and I certainly feel less bloated) and husband has lost 2 or 3lbs.  It's encouraged us - well me anyway, husband will eat basically whatever I give him - to continue.

I'm going through a run of really rough nights, I never sleep well anyway having suffered with insomnia my whole life but sleeping, well lack of, is much worse than usual and for a longer period, it's been a few weeks now.  I'm exhausted and am finding it very difficult to concentrate.  I know it'll get better soon, it usually does.  If I could just have one unbroken night's sleep a week, I'd be so happy.

The available housing list is out today, it's much shorter than usual, only 7 properties I think.  One is a bungalow that we'd bid for last week but the place was withdrawn, they've changed the wording slightly and put it back on the list, I've re-bidded (is that even a word?).  The only other suitable place is a house rather than a bungalow, it's right beside a big park and on the edge of a town with the GP surgery close by and shops only a short drive or bus ride, so it's suitable in that respect.  However, it's very close to the M5 motorway, just a few hundred yards the other side of the park, so it will be noisy - living here in this very rural area we're not used to traffic noise.  It's also in an area which appears to suffer from vandalism, so that's a bit worrying, I'm not sure I'd feel safe there.  However, the house has a reasonable size kitchen and garden, and has a wet room adapted shower room, so there's that.  I've bid on that property too, might as well.  It would improve husband's anxiety no end if we could just get as far as viewing a property.....unfortunately, I have no control over that.

Thank you for the supportive comments.  I had to laugh over Gemma's Person's comment that if I make a suggestion, it puts the thought into husband's mind.  The trouble is, thoughts don't stay in his mind!  😂

A few of you have commented that I'm strong and cope well - I certainly don't feel that, not at all, in fact a lot of the time I feel like I'm drowning.  But I cope and get on with things because I HAVE to, I have no other choice.....living where we do there's no official support locally, and nobody knocking at the door to offer help.  Unless I make a point of asking for it, which I don't tend to do unless I absolutely have to, as everybody has busy lives.