Lacking in self confidence

 Thank you all so much for the kind and helpful suggestions.....well, mostly helpful, other than the one who baldly and forthrightly stated "You need to get a life" - well, yes, thanks for that! 😐

I know I'm isolated, very isolated.  This is partly my own fault, but not all.  Where we lived before in the very rural tiny hamlet, everyone knew everyone and I had a couple of good friends who I saw a lot of, for coffee and chats.  Here I have no-one I'm close to - whilst I do know most residents in our little cul de sac of just 11 homes, and the nearest residents in the private houses, most are considerably older than me and very disabled or even housebound.  There are 2 women who are around my age, but I'm not really close to either of them for various reasons.  Also, if I strike up a conversation with anyone nearby, husband almost immediately appears and butts in, taking over the conversation - he's not being controlling, per say, he just can't help himself, he's always been the life and soul of the party and a big talker.  We are polar opposites - husband always the centre of attention, loud and talkative, he could talk the hind legs off a donkey, whereas I've always been the one in the background, observing more than joining in. 

Also, as I've often said before and some of you referenced in your comments, I can't drive and whilst there is a bus service (albeit not entirely reliable) nearby, not everywhere is accessible by bus.  I've been googling for carers groups, there are a few in Minehead and surrounds, I've not yet investigated all of them in depth.  One of them I don't apparently fit the criteria for, a couple of others I couldn't get to unless husband took me.....which kind of defeats the object of me having time on my own without him.  He could, of course, simply drop me off there and pick me up again later, but he'd probably moan about that.  I still have a couple more to check out though.  

I've looked at the list of activities held in our local village hall - most of them don't interest me but there is one that does - Tai Chi classes.  I've never done Tai Chi before, but it does appeal to me because of the apparently gentle movements, with no requirement for being fit as a gym bunny.  I did try yoga for 3 or 4 sessions whilst living at the last place, it didn't really suit me though as most of the movements or poses were done on the floor - whilst I can just about get down on the floor, because of my back, hip and knee problems (and now my shoulder), I have great difficulty getting up again.  I've emailed to ask for further details.  Oh and a bonus, I know husband wouldn't be remotely interested in it so it would definitely be something I could do on my own, and it's only 5 minutes walk away.

The fact of being so isolated here, despite loving living here, husband being increasingly grumpy and confrontational, and losing my friends (including my best friend of many years, that friendship ended very acrimoniously) has eroded my self confidence big time.  So, whilst I know I do need to get out more and join a few things, it's an extremely daunting, if not frightening, prospect, I'm not the most courageous of people.  And I don't want to feel bullied into doing something I'm not comfortable with.