As you may have realised, I've been really low lately.... very low indeed. Just performing like a robot, doing what needs doing and no more. Shutting my feelings off and building a barrier around myself. Having been away in my beloved caravan for a few days, I've picked up a bit. It was our park's 90th anniversary weekend so there were lots of owners there, and a big BBQ organised by the park owner. I was in two minds whether to attend the BBQ, I really didn't feel much like socialising, but went for an hour, husband stayed longer. It was nice just to spend time resting and reading though. Thank you all once again for all the supportive comments and emails, it's appreciated more than you know. I'm sorry if I haven't replied.
Our lovely next door van friends C&J arrived around lunchtime today (they couldn't come over the weekend), we waited to have a quick catch up with them and then came home. Husband has his more advanced memory tests at the clinic tomorrow, Betty goes to the groomer on Wednesday, and I'm busy on Thursday, we'll be back to the van on Friday for a proper catch up with C&J.
The senior psychologist who rang me to arrange husband's appointment tomorrow told me not to expect any diagnosis tomorrow, or even necessarily anytime soon. She said they'll have to have a case conference and it'll take time to analyse the results of all the tests. So more waiting.
The thing that worries me the most is something that Tania (Frugal in Essex) touched on in her comment last week. If husband is diagnosed with some form of dementia or cognitive impairment - well, it's not a good outcome by any means....but it'll be a diagnosis, no cure but possibly meds to slow it up. And possibly some help and support available for us.
But what if it isn't, what if there's no clinical reason for his problems and issues? Except getting old and obnoxious? What then?
I won't say "Try not to preempt anything", because I know you'll have all sorts of scenarios running round your mind. I would have, too. I just hope, when your husband has his memory assessment tomorrow, they can give you some sort of help or advice. I'll be thinking of you and hoping for the best for you both. Hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteGood Luck with the assessment. xx
ReplyDeleteWell, I guess you'll have to wait for the results...I know you're tired and frustrated. And if the test find nothing much more than "getting older", then...that's something only you can answer. For myself? I couldn't live with someone who treated me badly...but it's not me, it's you. You must do what you can live with...
ReplyDeleteBig Hug to you...
Donna
Hugs. Don't post often but think of you every day and wishing you all the best.
ReplyDeleteTry to focus on the absolute here and now and leave the 'what ifs' until later. Worry does nothing except ruin the day that you are in. You can't change anything, and if you try and relax a bit now you will be in a better position to deal with the outcome of the tests. Thinking of you. xx
ReplyDeleteI was going to say the same thing as Sue but she's said it so much better than I, so I won't try. So I will just send my love and some hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteMaybe he is the one who needs to be seen by a therapist.
ReplyDeleteLike you said there are meds for all sorts of things.
Surely the ones looking at him will have all sorts of suggestions and answers for things. The things you have been dealing with before with his learning disabilities and other things you may not know about could be affecting how he is acting. I would not worry until and unless you have reason. All of this has to be weighing on him as well, not an excuse for him, but maybe an explanation of his actions. Good luck.