Thanks for comments, it is hard to know that Mum's deteriorating and it does make us feel helpless. The GP asked if mum needs a carer for personal care - she said no, but that's something that sis, brother and I will discuss next week. It's good to know that the option is there if necessary.
I am utterly exhausted, after yet another broken night. There's a lot to do today - washing to get dried and put away (it'll be done in the tumble drier, as there's a heavy frost outside so it won't dry on the line). Bread to be made (dough proving already). Quite a lot of wrinkly root veg to deal with, I'll prep, roast and freeze it all. A pie to make for Sunday dinner - well, 2 actually, one to freeze, as I have enough pastry and filling. Pizza for tea tomorrow, it's a bought base, just have to add a few toppings. Slow cooker full of soup for lunches for the next few days, only needs whizzing up. I want to get all the food for the weekend prepared, so all husband needs to do is heat and serve.
I was asked the other day why I don't let husband do more to help. The answer to that is twofold - firstly, quite frankly it's easier to do it myself, if he does anything I have to keep stopping what I'm doing to give him step by step instructions, as he forgets constantly (a side effect of some of his heart meds). Secondly, he does the bulk of the dog walking, which gives me time to get on with things.
Once today's jobs are done, i'll collapse this evening and that will be that until Monday. Several appointments next week, including going up to Northampton for the day for our sibling pow-wow - it'll be a long day and I'll be wiped out, physically and emotionally, the next day.