Thank you for all the encouragement and love - think I need it right now (well, we all do, don't we?!).
My 'positive' outlook for the year is already being tested, and it's only the 2nd day. Things are happening around me that I have no control over but are incredibly frustrating. And my mother had to have paramedics called out again last night, she'd been in bed unwell all day, not eating or drinking again, and as a result was dehydrated with really low BP and all confused again. Honestly, she's been told umpteen times she should at least keep drinking, and my younger brother (who admittedly does have lots of health problems himself, but is sometimes very self absorbed and unobservant) lives with her, so the pair of them should know better. Paramedics stayed with her for a couple of hours again, getting her to drink first, then eat something, and checking until her BP had risen to a more normal level. They also gave her a telling off....whether it'll do any good remains to be seen. It's so frustrating for me when I live 150 miles away. To make things worse, my sister, who lives next door to mum, was out last night.
Anyway, I've kept busy this morning - put all the (few) decorations away (can't bear to see them in January, they're SO last year), did washing, made soup for lunch, did some banking, made a few phone calls to make some arrangements for next week.