Saturday, 15 December 2018

Tomorrow is another day...

...that's what I keep telling myself.

Thank you for all the kind comments, it's nice to know people care.  Marlene, I hope your husband is better soon and that your sleep's crap, isn't it.  Pam, I've checked through my stash and I do have 3 or 4 suitable colour balls spare, but thank you for your offer to send me some, that's so kind of you.  Gemma's Person, I don't mind at all, and yes it does feel like we all know each other.  Husband is on the mend, he feels much better today and slept quite well without having to get up in the night.  I didn't, of course (sleep well, I mean).

Had a mini meltdown yesterday, over something fairly trivial, it shows how all the stress and lack of sleep is affecting me.  There are times when I feel I'm a hairs breadth away from having a nervous breakdown or throwing myself under a tractor (no buses here!), and yesterday was one of those days.  Needless to say, all the stuff I was planning to do yesterday didn't get done.  So what.  It'll get done today - or not.

Awful weather here, strong winds and rain lashing down.  It's days like this when I almost (almost! but not really) wish we didn't have a dog, but of course she needs to go out, regardless of the weather.  I occasionally look at the dog rehoming sites, we often think it would be lovely for Betty to have a companion - well yesterday we saw another Shar Pei listed, an older one (8 y.o.) who looked so nearly identical to Betty they could be related....I was sorely tempted, and even husband looked interested.  But we can't afford another dog, Betty costs us enough as it is.  

I'm glad the Strictly final is on tonight, something to look forward to after what's been a shitty week, for one reason or another.


  1. So glad you didn't throw yourself under a tractor, lack of sleep is no good, I have days where I have not very nice thoughts. I think you and I both should be a bit kinder to ourselves and not worry about what needs doing or what had been planned, we need to chill out more, I am doing a bit of baking this morning and not much else, looking forward to Strictly tonight.

  2. I hope that it is all on the up from here. If you do find yourself short of a colour then do let me know, I have the largest stash of Stylecraft, I am sure that it breeds.

  3. try and have a rest today and enjoy something your really like doing like crochet all day. I am shopping for the last few bits.
    Hazel c uk

  4. I send you hugs. I know exactly what you mean when its the little trivial things that send you off. I keep asking the question who cares for the carer......?
    If you need to let off steam email me
    Julie xxxxx

  5. We all have days like that but it becomes a major thing when anxiety and stress is in the mix. There are some days when I'm best to be left alone and I hate myself when I'm like that.

    My advice for what it's worth, is to either keep busy so that your mind is focused on the job in hand or take time off so that you can get yourself back to normal. The only trouble with the latter is that if, like me, your mind will tend to exaggerate the little molehills which then become insurmountable mountains, so I would suggest you keep busy.

    The weather here today on the Devon/Somerset border is not very nice at all, is it?

    Best wishes to you.

  6. Meltdowns have been frequent here but as I've posted today I'm wondering if the Marmite is helping me.
    Things are always worse at this time of year because its made to make you think that you should be SO happy and really life isn't like that just because it christmas is it?
    Glad hubby is better, that helps.

  7. Difficult days!! Venting helps!

  8. For the sake of sanity Col and I had separate rooms for a long time before he died, it meant we both slept.
    Hope you have a better week next week
    (Arctic cold here today, glad I don't have to walk the cat!)

  9. My poor sweet Sue, I do wish I could help you in some way.

    I agree with Briony about the Marmite, it certainly works to keep me on an even keel when I feel wobbly.

    Sending love and hugs, as always. XOXO


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