Tuesday 31 December 2019

The end of a crap year

2019 has been pretty bloody awful, culminating with Mum dying on Christmas Eve 10 minutes before we got to the hospital.  She'd been ill the entire year, with multiple hospital admissions, gradually - and then rapidly - getting worse and worse throughout the year.  Several times she took a turn for the worse and we all thought it was the end, only for her to pick up again.  It's been a real rollercoaster.  It's a blessed relief that she's now out of pain, her last few weeks were truly horrible, for her and for us.  

My beloved aunt Sylvia, Mum's younger sister with whom I spent a lot of time when I was in my teens and 20s, died in July after a short illness, we did see her in hospital 2 hours before she died.  I still miss her dreadfully.

Husband's health has been, and continues to be, a worry this year.  He's got an appointment for admission to the day surgery ward in mid January, so they can accurately measure his prostate - they need to know the exact size before they can operate.  If it's too big, he'll have to go to a hospital quite far away for the operation, they won't do it at our local one - another worry.  The cold weather and long drive up to the Midlands to see my Mum has affected him quite a lot with his heart failure, he's been exceptionally tired, more so than usual.

My health hasn't been good this year either, having been diagnosed with arthritis and bursitis in my hips, the start of a diabetic foot problem and my liver disease having progressed to Stage 2, and a lot of gut trouble caused mainly by anxiety and stress.

But there have been some good nephew's wedding in August was truly lovely, despite it peeing down with rain the whole day, meaning we had to be inside in a conservatory (it was held in an old abbey, now a wedding venue) rather than outside in the gorgeous grounds.

I started a new hobby, card making, which I love and was pleasantly surprised to find I'm actually quite artistic, something I never knew!

My 60th birthday was lovely, we went away to Devon for the week and the day of my birthday was made really special by our wonderful friends.

We now have the funeral to get over with on the 11 January, there are some associated family problems which I'm not going into on here but which will be a big worry for some time to come.

But we're really hoping that 2020 will be an improvement on this year - I won't say it can't be any worse, as I don't want to tempt fate.

Thank you all so very much for all the support you've given me, it's made the bad times a lot more bearable and comforted me a lot.  I hope next year is a good one for all of you.


  1. I wish you a much much better year for 2020 - better health and fewer bumps in the rocky road.

  2. I hope 2020 sees things picking up for you. Once the funeral is over, you can start to concentrate on getting yourself and Hubby as fit and well as possible. I wish you a Happy New Year with all sincerity. After this past year - you deserve it! xx

  3. I hope that 2020 is a much better year for you and those you love. x

  4. Goodbye 2019 and I bet you really are glad to see the back of it. Hopefully 2020 will be a better year for you.

  5. I agree with everyone's wishes here for you!

  6. I really hope 2020 brings you the peace and happiness you deserve Sooze.

  7. I sincerely hope you have a much healthier, happier, better year.

  8. I wish you all the best in 2020 and some, if not all, of your health issues can be resolved.

  9. Wishing you peace, health and happiness for 2020. x

  10. Wishing you all the best for 2020. xxx

  11. Dear Sooze, it's been a rotten old time for you and 'im too this year. It has been just one thing after another, coming relentlessly close to each other with hardly time to breathe.
    Many would have gone under. You haven't, you've been brave, strong and a real model for others. Yes, you've found it hard, you've shared a lot (and I'm sure that's helped) on your blog, but you've kept going!
    Wishing you strength for the things you know are coming, hopes that there are many good things around the corner just waiting to pounce, and lots of love and thanks for your support.

  12. You've both had more than your fair share of bad stuff thrown at you last year. You may not see it that way but you've dealt with it magnificently and with real strength and didn't buckle once. Of course, there were a few wobbles, and who wouldn't, but you got through them and never lost your sense of humour.

    Wishing you all the best for this new year! xx

  13. Sounds like your year was as bad as mine!

    Julie xxxxxx


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